Me - Keeping it Real

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OK, so.....

I have been working on this blog for a little while. Every few days I will add some words to explain myself.

I am full of words and emotions but sometimes I don't get them across just right so please bare with me.

I want to be real. I want to keep it real. I want you to be real. I want my images to be real.

A year ago I opened my studio. It was wonderful it was busy, it was hard work, it was rewarding and it was an adventure. But there was something inside me that wasn't being fulfilled. Don't get me wrong, I loved every minute of what I was doing; chatting with the new parents, soothing a fresh newborn, giggling with the siblings. But I craved something so much more real.

{I will use the word 'real' a lot here, as I feel it best explains what I am trying to say.}

I craved the bonding, the play, the tired, the sleepy, the uncertainty, the emotions, the environment of something so real you cant put a headband on it. You cant pose for hours just to get 'that shot'. You cant anticipate or control.

I wanted you.

In all its raw, tired, blissful happiness. Just you.

I didn't want to take your babe out of your arms wrap it up like a jelly bean, make its hand hold its face just right and then move on to the next shot.

I want real.

It took me a little while to realise this is what I wanted. I knew I loved working with newborns but why was I wanting more? I now know. I didn't want a studio with all the fancy props and pretties galore, I just wanted real.

So I made the decision to close the studio. I didn't take this decision lightly and I still worry if I am doing the right thing but something is pulling me and I feel like I want to go with it.

So now the studio is closed and this amazing new chapter of my life is opening. I am in love more than ever with the amazing couples who allow me in to photograph their wedding day; the mumma who lets me freeze her amazing pregnancy in time; the family who let me hang with them to capture the true them, and I now this path will only lead me to great things and great people.

When people ask me how I got into photography I usually go with the story 'oh, I fell in love with it while I was travelling Europe' and to this day I believed it myself. But the truth is, I dont know. I dont know what made me start taking photos. I dont know what was driving this feeling of wanting more. I dont know how I got to where I am today. I just know I love it. I know more than ever that this is my passion.

As I have gotten older (26! oh shit) I have learnt to let go.

Let go of other photographers work, let go of the ties holding me down, let go of my thoughts and let go of my worries. Just go with it.

Since listening to my heart I have not taken a wrong direction.

I am happy, I am creating, I am soulful, I am energetic and I am inspired.

I no longer wish I was like anyone else.

I am me. I am a photographer who is happy to capture the unknown.

I love shooting your life more than anything.

I am so happy I am on this journey and I am so happy to have people let me enter their lives.

I want to get deep with you. Create with you. Feel with you.

I want to be real with you.

Lets do it.